People are amazing.

Ok, so confession.  For those of you who know me more through this blog than other outlets- I just want to be very upfront.  Several of you were sweet enough to comment on my strength or how I've been handling everything that has happened in the past few weeks- and while I think it is AMAZING for you to be so supportive and I love you for it- I just want you to know, that I'm not a perfect picture of strength in times of despair, and though I'm REALLY working hard on being positive despite the challenges we've faced recently- there have been times that it has just beaten me down.  Made me not want to try to get back up.  Those times are usually when I give myself enough time to actually process everything and think about how it makes me feel.  I just don't think I'm ready for that yet, if that makes sense?  Like I need a little more time first, to distance myself from the rawness of the wounds, so I can look at them in the foggy distance- and right now- they're a little too in my face yet.

But- in the midst of everything- at the times I feel the most beaten down- every time there has been someone to give me a boost.  It's like when you play that game at parties, where you hit a balloon into the air, and do everything to avoid it hitting the ground?  It's like I'm the balloon, and every time I think, "this is it, I'm hitting the ground and it's game over here" someone has swooped in and pushed me back into the air and kept me going.

I don't know how to say a big enough thank you, or a meaningful enough one.  Whether it was a simple tweet from someone I barely knew saying they hoped things would get better soon, or a comment here on the blog, a Facebook "like" to my attempts at humor amidst the turmoil, or the people who were here helping me get things back on track, tirelessly working to help me and moving onward to better things, the friend who would come over at a moment's notice so I could get to the doctor or pick up medicine AND watch my crazy rugrat, the kind voice on the other end of the phone at the body shop even- it ALL mattered and it helped SO. MUCH.

Then, to top it off, my husband, my amazing and thoughtful husband, worked his tail off for the last month plus, planning a surprise party for my 30th birthday.  Over a MONTH of planning.  I couldn't believe it.  And I had absolutely NO clue it was coming until I walked into it this past Saturday night, with so many of my favorite people present, all I could do was cry, I was so happy and had such a wonderful time- it just felt so good to be surrounded by friends and loved ones.  I can't possibly thank my husband enough, or my wonderful friends and family who helped and attended- I'm STILL overwhelmed.

I am SO incredibly lucky to know (both in "real life" on through this little web home of mine) some of the most amazing people on the planet.  Please, know you're appreciated immensely and I wish I had better words to express it!

A couple of quick pics from my surprise birthday, taken by my friend Eileen :-)

In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit.
Albert Schweitzer

1 comment:

  1. Congrats on hitting 30 Natali. I too struggled really badly just before turning 30 and was not looking forward to it at all. It was just another thing to add to everything else that was going on. However, having just turned 31, I can tell you that 30 was the most awesome year. So many positive things happened in my life turning 30 and I have hope that the same will happen for you!


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